Sunday, 31 December 2006
♥ Arggg~
I've 2 party to go to today (actually)...
I've told him about it yesterday.. initially he just ignored it but i guess he realised i wasn't being my normal self so he asked if I'm sure i wanted to go...
I make my stand and obviously he doesn't seems interested as he keep asking if I'm sure i wanted to go...
i really felt disappointed not because I'm not able to go to the party but because he wasn't compromising enough... 1 party was advance birthday celebration of Lynn's... Not that he doesn't know her or even her brothers who will be around... Another was my father's side relatives countdown gathering... now that my family/relatives are also he's so i don't see why he can't go with me...
worst still was that he doesn't want me to go alone too coz he doesn't want people to ask me why he isn't there... -__-''
Although i can always go both party myself but the fact was that to travel there wasn't as simple... coz i need to book for a cab and that make it $4.50 before the car starts the journey... *I'm poor can!!*
i think he is firm on his stand too and all i can do was to feel the anger inside myself... I don't want to make matter worst by flaring up over it but i sincerely feel bad to make Lynn feel disappointed coz if i don't turn up, it will be the 2nd year that i didn't celebrate her birthday with her...
As for my relatives, I've already rejected the Xmas party last week partly because of him too... now that I'm going to miss the gathering again...
For all i know, i might not be able to meet the 38club if they were to organise a meet up on the 1st or 2nd Jan...
He just doesn't want to mingle with my groups of friends...
I know he will (some how or rather) feel bad for not letting/accompany me go... that's why he agreed to play UNO with me, play poker with me, order 933 golden pillow for my sake and to bring me out to eat last night at 1+am coz i'm hungry...
it's really a mixed feeling... i never demand that he go both party but at least choose 1... at some point of time, i can really feel the sadness in me...