When i was 3 years old, i attended buddhism class at this temple call "lian chi ge" located at paya lebar crescent... singing the song "san bao ge" is a routine and prceed to class and after class, we'll sing another song and after that we'll go for meal...
the monk there who we call him "yen zheng shi" will always play with us and he even gave my brother a nick name call "foot-baller" coz didi like to bring a ball along everytime and kicks it..
After i got married last year, daddy have been telling me to go "lian chi ge" when i'm free since it within walking distance from where i stay.. i didn't went once as i'm afraid or rather embrasses to tell yen zheng shi that i'm my parents's daughter, foot-baller's sister and that little girl who attended buddhism class... i'm scared that he doesn't recognise me.. i'm scare of being akward...
last sat, mummy called me.. she told me yen zheng shi passed away.. i felt heavy-hearted at that moment... my first reply to mummy wasn't "why/how he died" instead i said "he still not that old yet right?"
I then walked down to "lian chi ge" and on the way down, i keep thinking what to feel embrasses about? why i didn't go and tell him that i'm my parents's daughter... like feeling full of remose...
we walked around the coffin where his motionless body lies and i can't controlled my tears anymore... even thou' i'm not very close with him but some how i felt deeply connected with him... we sat down to sing prayers for him but my mind keeps revolving about why i didn't listen to daddy? why i didn't went earlier and even if just to realise his illness, i still can tell mummy about it... why i will feel akward? many whys came and nothing can be changed...
if i were to visit him earlier, then at least i still can hear him speak to me.. even his reply might be "i don't remember you"... but now all i can hear is prayers from fellow mates and that empty shell without a soul inside the rectangular coffin...
in memories of yen zhen shi..
Friday, 29 June 2007
♥ this is hilarious
watch the video!!! My sis sent this to me... damn funny~
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
♥ Jess's belated birthday celebration
Meet up with Jac last friday to buy jess's pressie at D'meyson... gotten a warehouse price for a diamond pendant...
Anyway, jess's party was set on 24th June which is a Sunday... Had steamboat at her house with Daniel, Louis, Pearllyn, Jacqueline and Jac's bf... i bought kammy over too!!! She's a good girl and didn't fuss...
I always like to sit beside Louis coz he will be the cook~ Asked lynn to buy a small cake for jess but end up all of us had a little of it.. =)
The open present ceremony was funny... hopefully i'll be able to upload the video...
♥ meet up on 23.06
Agreed to meet lynn and andy to go D'meyson to see the ring and initially the plan was to bring kammy along... Then on second thought, i'm scared that baby girl didn't have enough sleep and asked if dearie want to take care of her while i'm out...
Fast foward... end up we had some disagreement and out of anger, i carry kammy when she's asleep and went out tp meet lynn...
Lynn bought the ring and a earing and saves some money using the voucher.. =)
Had Yoshinoya for dinner and take-away for dearie and sis...
Everything was fine when i'm back...
♥ Dan Dan's advance birthday celebration...
Received dan's invitation long time ago and she's called once to confirm my attendance but i told her that i wouldn't be able to go as it's too far... can hear her disappointment over the phone..
On the day before 22nd June, lishan asked me if i'm going and i said the same thing... then she volunteer to fetch me to and fro... So, i agreed and dan was extremely happy that we (lishan, marilyn, me and kammy) went...
on the 22nd night, it was the first time i saw Jannon and jessie after jannon's birth(we have been saying that we'll meet up some time since March)...
Had a good time there and aunty irene is really very friendly...
I reached home at 12++am and kammy had already K.O
Monday, 25 June 2007
♥ A new "home"
Really pissed with friendster blog coz i can't evern view my own blog plus not much help given by the helpdesk...
Shifted back to blog*spot coz i like the new features but one bad thing is that i can't import all my previous post from friendster... So, give me some time and i'll eventually put up the old post manually one-by-one... O_o'''
Mean while, i'll continue update my blog...
Check back!!
Thursday, 21 June 2007
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some thing very wrong with my blog... i can update but i can't view the actual blog page... weird...
very pissed with friendster help desk.. they say for free blog, go find solution at the user manual... I then go and find solution there but none of the topic is what i encounter.. sian~ this problem have been very long lor... i think got more than 1 month le... maybe will export all my post and back to blogspot... but i don't know where to find nice blogskin leh... haiz...
38club meet up on weekend to celebrate jess's belated birthday... okies, will blog other time.. kammy is crying.... =)
Thursday, 14 June 2007
♥ updating
As mentioned from last post that I'm working so for the past weeks I'm too busy to blog... Actually is ever since married and busy taking care of kammy, i didn't have that much time for all these...
Anyway, I'm not working in in-laws company anymore coz kammy is very very very fussy in the office and her sleep time decreases alot and in-laws are afraid that she's not getting enough quality sleep as phone calls and bright lights will interrupt her...
True enough, the 1st day without going to office, kammy slept whole day... today is the same too... might be bringing her to my dad's house tomorrow so i can continue help my mum with the accounts data entry and also coach my brother...
Recently everything is very peaceful over my side... Dearie is more helpful now... So i guess my nagging have took effects and ofcoz the little praising did help too...
The day before, we watched Hills have eyes 2 together... damn horrifying and some scene make me wanna puke... very gross!!!!
Jacqueline came to visit me and kammy yesterday... Jac was so lucky coz I'm not working and kammy was in good mood... kammy talks and laugh at her and they have a good time playing...
Baby girl is behaving her well... currently she is playing with herself in the room now... funny thing is every now and then i can hear her screaming in excitement and making lots of noises like how she played with us... so i guess she must be enjoying herself alot... i do check on her from time to time and when i laugh at her, she will smile at me sweetly... I'm loving her more~
Dan dan told me about Kenneth dad's depart... felt sad but expected coz years ago Kenneth told me about his dad's situation... Today checking out everyone's blog and the first i read up was Jessie's... thou she did write in details what had happen but i sense something very wrong and i hope she and Jason will not end up on the worst decision... jannon is still so young... dan dan's blog make me worried for her too...
i heart felt uneasy when i read both their blogs...
hope everyone is worry-free and leads a happy life...
thanks Lynn for changing my shirt for me... you are really my best buddy... somehow i felt relieved to have know you and feel that no matter what you are always the one who will stand by me and support me... i love you too!!!
happy days everyone.. cheers
Saturday, 2 June 2007
♥ ways to get money coming in
ever since i defer my course, having income has been a problem... initially i work at in-laws's company during my pregnancy days for around 2 months... after which i stay home and rest...
After giving birth to kammy, i basically live on dearie's salary.. which i find it rather hard to support 3 of us.. especially kammy spends alot on her milk which cost approx $32 and last only for 2 1/2 weeks...
Therefore i start to find jobs opportunity... but working outside is mere impossible as no one looks after kammy... so by chance, i found out about getting paid to read email of your interest and paid to do survey which both are free membership... of course these don't pay you much but it did help to earn some money la...
One fine day, i asked mummy to let me do her accounts job and she jolly well agreed and paid me to key in the data... I'll get $200 for every 31 days of data i keyed... therefore i work pretty hard and fast.. so usually I'll do 7 days of data in 1 day...
Mummy also gave me another work opportunity which is to tutor my brother on his maths and Chinese... of course I'm paid for that too but yet to decide the rate... thou' tutoring my brother seems to be my responsibility but vitamin M is lacking so i told mum to pay me lower...
Just the day before, mother-in-law asked me to go office to learn about accounts things which means I'll get paid as a full time stuff...
It was so funny to think back... i have no jobs initially and after i found some, more to come...
Now I'm thinking how to plan for my time... 8am - 6.30pm at office, maybe 7pm go back my house tutor my brother for 1 1/2 hours and make him do some questions while i key in the data...
If the above can be done, i guess I'll make lots of money... at the same time, I'll work hard to read more email and do more survey... by august, I'll probably saved enough money as my allowance as I'm going back to study...
So, if anyone of you have those online making money website please tell me... not only i can be your referral, i can also earn some money but provided the membership is free.. =)
-cheers-
♥ a b o u t m e
♥ Name: Christine Huang
♥ Age: 23
♥ Precious: Kammy Ngian Xuan Lin born on 3rd March 2007
♥ Precious: Damien Ngian Hong Jun born on 15th June 2009