Saturday, 21 April 2007
♥ LWMC
heard from dan dan about slimming at london weight management and after much discussion with dearie, i went for consultation with dan dan...
Signed for a package and got a good price coz that consultant was dan dan's friend... do our trial that very day and lost 0.7kg that day...
but on the next appointment, my weight went back to square one coz i never watch my diet... haha...
the problem is that it's very hard to me to do so coz what i ate was bought by dearie or his parents.. so i can't really choose what to eat as they buy at specific places... sometimes mother-in-law cooks the dinner and i can't say i don't want to eat.. also, they will buy food for me without informing me (sometimes) so out of courtesy, i ate it...
now i'm really trying hard to control my diet and told dearie not to buy high carbo food for me...
Saturday, 7 April 2007
♥ another celebration...
my parents organised a buffet held at a function room at my aunt's place... all my relatives from my grandma, father and mother's sides were invited... I also invited my friends along...
kammy received lots of presents and ang baos that night... the naughty princess slept throughout the event just like what she did when my in-laws holds a dinner few days ago... -__-'' best part is she woke up when we are back home and refuse to sleep... o_O
Wednesday, 4 April 2007
♥ kammy's arrival
on 3rd march, around 5+am, i think my water bag breaks but i feel no pain at all. i woke dearie up and we went to the hospital for confirmation...
upon confirming that my water bag was broken, i was admitted... the contraction hasn't hit me and i opt for epidural and some oxidize water injected through my nerve and flow thoughout to aid in my contraction...
i had a good sleep thoughout as the epidural has taken effect and i can't feel any contraction pain... my gynae checked me thrice but the cervix was not fully opened... the last check was about 2+pm and my gynae said it's only 35% opened and thinks that i'm gonna to have a long labour, therefore she increases my oxidize water to help faster contraction but the increasement made kammy's heart weak...
the duty officer came in time to realise the problem and together with a few nurses, they spent some time to stablised kammy's heart beat.. truthfully, at that moment i wasn't panic cos i didn't know what's going on in the first place.. for all i know is that i heard kammy's heart beat with longer interval...
after that, i feel menses like cramp and i thought it must be real pain if without epidural.. i called for the midwife and she checked to confirm that i'm ready for labour.... she then page for my gynae and the time was 3+pm.. less then an hours time, kammy was out at 4.24pm.. the whole labour is less then 10 hours...
i was too weak to hold her but her first cry was so loud, clear and beautiful.!!! it was as if she was announcing her birth to the world outside my womb!!! =)
Tuesday, 3 April 2007
♥ 1 month old
finally baby is 1 month old le... had he hair shaved and father-in-law wants to use her baby hair to make calligraphy brush... her cord was also made into stamp...
on her 2nd day of birth, we got professional to get her foot print and photo taken...
in the day, she had her hair removed and pay respect to dearie's ancestor then we brought her over to my grandma's house to pay respect to my ancestor...
during the night, in-laws holds a dinner at a restaurant and invites relatives to mark her 1st month...
Monday, 2 April 2007
♥ confinement
the first few weeks was like hell to me... so weak yet have to take care of kammy...
Dearie only took 1 week leave and after that period of time, i have to take care of kammy singly... my grandmother took care of my confinement food and my dad send it over to me... luckily mother-in-law helps bath kammy...
During the day, i was alone with kammy... i realised that the lack of sleep, weakness and pain causes me to get upset easily... i guess that's when the postnatal blues hits me... i keep thinking of all sorts of things and cries over unnecessary issues... things got worst and whenever i sees kammy, i would teared and thought of ending my life...
Somehow i find all sorts of reasons and pushes the blame to dearie... i feel bad about it and was afraid that we might quarrel but the good thing is that he didn't flare at me for all my nonsense...
by chance, i read for a magazine that during the first 2 weeks, it's normal for mothers to experience postnatal blues but it the situation still continues after that, must seek for doctors and it might me depression...
by the end of week 2, i begin to know kammy's habit and routine... everything got a little better... but some time in the night she would woke up very frequently and whine which makes me loses my temper... thus make me think that she's such a fuss...
Doing confinement was really a bad idea but have to respect the elders that's why i would follow... otherwise i wouldn't had to close myself up in the house for 1 month... -__-'' ofcoz there's some cheating during the confinement coz i really can't follow all the "rules".. =X
Kammy is growing each day... her smiles brightens up our days and also there's time her cries angers us too... although sometimes negative thoughts came, she still the one we loves...