Monday, 16 July 2007
♥ my mood swings
Yesterday i failed as a mother... A really bad one... just to 'ou qi' with dearie, i left kammy near the edge of the bed and went to the 5th floor... i jolly well know that baby has learnt to roll over already yet i left her on the edge... after that i heard faint baby cry and thought is the neighbour's baby and suddenly dearie called out for me and say kammy fell...
i rushed down and he showed me black face... i felt guilty as kammy fell and all this can be prevented but what i'm really upset about was that he think it's all my fault... anyway, according to dearie, he said kammy was stuck in between our bed and her cot... this means she didn't really fell to the ground...
i'm very sad when i offer to examine her but he carried her tightly and refuse to let me see her... it was so heartbreaking as thou i'm gonna lose my daughter forever... i cried so hard that my eyes went red and delayed in going down to eat as i'm afraid that in-laws will take notice of my eyes...
after i went back to the room, maid carried kammy up to my and i keep apologising to her and everything turns out fine again even between me and dearie...
for dinner, in-laws and us went to this french stall (is a kopitiam concept but selling french food) at sturdee road... the food was nice and best of all, cheap... a set meal consist of starter, main course and dessert is only for $14.90...WOW~!!!
backed home after dinner, i went to search my wedding ring coz i couldn't find it when i'm leaving for dinner... i thought i either lose it or left it at my dad's house but i remember removing it the night before... mother say go home find again if still can't find then she go ask the maid... the first attempt to find it failed... then luckily sister-in-law help me to search again and found it... Heng ah, if not the poor maid will kanna...